Allow me to be quite blunt, and please forgive my language.
mevanoff, either sober up and dry out or shut up. Do you even realise how sad it is that the only real communication you have is spamming/trolling a former lover’s blog with rambling, incoherent nonsense? I know that as you read this, you will laugh. I can hear your laugh, even now.
Just think of what you have lost. Take a look at yourself. Take a good, long look at yourself. You should be ashamed.
I know what you’re trying to do.
You are to be pitied.